The Other Half
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May 20
It had seemed like years since I had walked through a corridor without the fear of being
attacked or shot at. I had just survived the disaster that left the Black Mesa Research facility
in ruins, the disaster that I helped create. I should have died along with my fellow employees
who I have just betrayed by accepting an offer of employment from the man who knew it all along.
The man who watched me bleed and struggle through my own hell as he straightened his black silk tie.
The G-man. There is no excuse, but what choice did I have? He had given me the choice between life
and death, as if he were holding it up to me like a check. I shouldn't have taken his offer, He
would have killed me but I refused to die! I refused! Not after all this time I had stayed alive,
just like he said "Rather an anti climax after what you've just survived. I wanted to kill him,
killing had just been so easy before, I shot man after, man, after man. I had never even used a
weapon before, if I hadn't seen the Military slaughter innocent people, former co-workers of
mine, right before my eyes, I couldn't have pulled the trigger, I would have died along side my
colleagues. Unfortunately killing is one of those things that get easier every time you do it. I
wanted to kill him, and now he is my only hope, my only way of living. But what does he want from
me? Why me? I'm sure there are other survivors, and out of all of them he picked me, have I not
suffered enough? Listen to me, wallowing in self-pity, almost drowning in it, it's my fault, I
brought this on myself, I could have said no. I should have, I new that there was a risk something
could go wrong the second I entered the lab, I should have listened to Roberts, but instead I put
science before Human lives. I must help the G-man in whatever way I can, no matter how much
I despise him. For now I will stay in this place, not knowing where I am, except that I must be
on earth and that there are others besides me. He will speak to me tomorrow, I wonder what he
might ask me, hmm I wont be able to sleep for some time now.
May 21
It seems the G-man hasn't saved me, I will be forever killing, or be killed. I have nobody to turn
to, the Government are my employers, the Government are everyone's employers. I have been assigned
to assassinate the remaining survivors of the now broadcasted "Research Facility Holocaust" the
Military survivors have been showered with glory, and made out as Hero's while the real hero's
are either dead or captive of the Government, of course putting aside the ones I must murder in
cold blood. I have no other options, I must do it, I have just escaped murder. It sickens me to
think I must kill again. Only now I'm killing people like me. Maybe I can find a way to stop this
if I can escape the military and a blood thirsty alien species then why can't I escape the
Government? It sounds insane, but I have cheated death, I can cheat the Government. This morning
I was given food, I was given food yesterday but I couldn't eat it, I ate it this time. The
strange thing is, yesterday I was very badly injured I was assisted to my quarters, although its
more like a cell, and I was given a shot of some kind to help ease the pain. After I fell into
unconsciousness, I awoke in a perfectly normal condition, I had finally had the suit removed, and
was wearing normal clothes. How did they do this? Who did this? I feel fine physically. I have
been to an alien border world and watched alien species in their normal day state, but the
Government is the thing that baffles me the most, is that possible. I leave for Seattle tomorrow
where the Government has tracked down a witness of the disaster, I have to assassinate him or as
the G-man put it "Silence him". Perhaps I should start to call him by his actual name,
Laurence Myers. I've wasted half of my life on science, I think it's about time I made a start on
the other half.
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